hello(:okay i love myself la..my mood swings r so hysterical..ughhs.................anyways, hahahhow can i hate myself?God gave me my life..He has a purpose for creating me!i am Rachael Lim!yeah okay diao..i really love dance luhhs!whenever im at home,with nth better to do,ill feel like dancing..then ill just dance lolmusic and dancingis my life<33333333333..okay shall i pick up ebass guitar or lead guitarfirst????well, i wanna pick up both..maybe i should start with e bass..im alrdy learning e db..e bass is cool!okay hahah..his arms r gonna be gone..oh ya it just happened..well, that's love isnt it?he has no arms now..ohoh i shall eat myred bean bun now..wait for me!!okay back!u know red bean bun'sjust so delicious n nice..u should seriously eat it man..yeahs..n e book of Proverbs is great!it's a MUST to read it!i just love Proverbs man!ohhs had piano exam today..i have stage fright every timeit comes to this..i didnt play as well as i usually do..but at least better thanmep performing..i was simply shivering n trembling!well, hahah i dont know y..but now when i listen to music,ill just keep on listening toall e instruments..no matter wad instru it is..like bass or lead guitar,drums or keyboard..i just love them all!!yeahs i shall do my hmwk now..n come back later..
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i need to scream it out loud!!!ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..what other place is there for meto go besides e beach so thati can scream!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!i hate myself.i hate my life.
"where is God when i am hurt?""Right here, beside me"this was today's sermon..and it related to me 100%..i feel very dry and hurt..but ive forgiventhose who've hurt me..even though they dont seemto realise.. oreven if they do,will they care?all i know is thatGod is here with me,for me no matter wad happensand dealing it with me,together(:I really love Him..after crying so much,i have nothing to say..e inside of me now,really wants to showe patience n compassionto e pple who have hurt me..even though i am still hurt..even though i ponder n wonderof when they will realise..even though life suckseven though it seemslike no one cares,no one loves me,even though it's stressing,painful n tiringto be in this world..i know that one person will..always love me..always care for me..always understand me..always know me..never judge me frommy inability to process painnever hate me..n that is our one n onlySovereign Lord.He looks at our heartthat is hurting more thanthe sins we r commiting.I now know that i must:Process this hurt and painthat i am going throughin FULL confidence thatGod still cares.Fear and trust God's character,for God is love.Fear and trust God's timing,for He is in control.Fear and trust God's Sovereignty,for He is the Creator,our Creator.I felt n still feel so touchedby e fact that our pain mattersso much to Him,by e fact thatGod loves. And God Is love.before PJ told us that,God spoke to me,He said to me"My child, I love you."i was just so touched.i couldnt stop time after timeto break down in tears..God loves. And God Is love.
'We love him becauseHe first loved us.' 1John 4:19God loves. And God Is love.
"Where is God when it hurts?""Right Here!"GOD LOVES. AND GOD IS LOVE!